I have a lot of
thoughts and opinions on this subject and I’m having trouble writing about it
without going a little overboard. Bear with me!
The older I get, the more I believe that faith is as
unique as the person feeling it. My faith is very different from the faith of
someone who has battled cancer, buried their child, overcome (or not) substance
abuse problem, filed bankruptcy and started over. My faith is very different
from the faith of someone who has witnessed a tragedy or taken a life or hugged
orphans overseas.
I was interested when I started to read the synopses of Outlaw Christian because it seemed like
Jacqueline A Bussie had the same
view.
She uses the term outlaw to describe a Christian who
doesn’t follow perfect cookie-cutter rules within their faith. She talks about
things in this book I was once in no place to hear or understand, but now am.
Being angry with God, for instance. It’s easy to gasp and cluck at the idea,
but I bet it’s a whole lot more understandable when you’ve been through
something so horrendous and keep hearing the same old clichés.
I’m struggling to review this book because I had
conflicting feelings about it. Some passages really struck me and I completely
greed. Others still bothered me a little. Anger at God, for instance, was a
difficult one for me to read. I spent about a year very angry with God not too
long ago and I feel awful about that now because it was really displaced anger.
I had a right to be angry, but I don’t think with God.
There is a lot of suffering in this world and there are a
lot of terrible things, things which I do of course have a lot of questions
about. I don’t personally believe that every tragedy is “for a reason we just
can’t see yet.” Miscarriage, for example… I will never believe that miscarriage
is orchestrated by God, that He intentionally gives a woman a child to be
excited about only to take that same baby away “for reasons we don’t know yet.”
I think it’s just an unfortunate thing that breaks God’s heart too.
I’ve met people who lost a child and gave up their faith,
but I’ve also met people who lost a child and lean more heavily into God than
they ever had before. Some people volunteer in the poorest slums of the world
and feel sick over a God who allows this kind of life, and others take the same
trip and draw close to Him, suddenly feel his providential blessings and
understand their purpose in this life is to go back and help those in need.
Again, I think faith is as unique as a fingerprint.
Bottom line, I think Outlaw Christian is a great read…
but I think you have to be in the right place to be able to read it. Once upon
a time this book would have offended me so I guess I’d say keep that in mind if
you decide to look into it!
Favorite quote: “The point of all this is, God is a real
friend, not a Facebook friend. God is interested in way more than your smiley, sunny pictures of your kids at their
soccer game and your dog in his Santa hat, or for that matter your rant-post
about the long line at Starbucks this morning. God wants the whole you. God wants a real
conversation, not just a 140-character tweet or status update. God wants to sit
with you, even if sometimes you just have to throw it all up. God wants to know
everything that is really going on with you, all of your deepest thoughts and
fears and idiosyncrasies and worries.”
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I'm going to check this out.
ReplyDeleteSide note: I think a lot of times being "offended" or feeling uncomfortable with this stuff is God tugging at our gut to tell us "Hey...you need to pay special attention to this".
Definitely a very interesting point!!
DeleteI don't discount the genuineness of her personal experience. Reading this book I could see that 1/ Bussie is not a competent biblical exegete 2/ the book is too wordy 3/ following Christ is, by default, a radical way of life and so on.
ReplyDeleteDid it make you want to listen in on one of her classes? I felt like there were certain passages that might have read one way but sounded completely different in her classroom, hearing her voice and tone changes. It makes me very curious.
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